YAPACINO’s review published on Letterboxd:
well here goes nothing
today is my last day of school, and after a long, exhausting and difficult school year I have finally made it to summer vacation without failing a single subject.
if you are wondering why I have barely seen anything for the last few weeks, let me fill you in.
I was always looking forward to this day and seeing it as an opportunity to start watching movies nonstop, but then the closer I got to this day the more random stuff happened that made me change my initial wish.
first of all, even though I managed to pass every subject I still feel amazingly disappointed, my grades are still quite bad or average compared to most other students at my class, and no matter how hard I try to do my best in school I still fail when compared to other guys and girls in my class, during the last few school years my grades have always been the same, they never improve and they also never decline, I always have the exact average grade, which is ok if you want to avoid summer school but it is not ok if you want to study in a great university and be super successful.
second of all, during the last few months my desire to become a filmmaker has grown more and more each year, I always brainstorm and play around with all these cool and random ideas I have that I wish to turn into future projects some day, I have sat down and try to write some scripts, but then I realize how much I suck when it comes to writing dialogue, and decided to try something different.
in other words I have decided to start my film career of making a short film of my very own, and im not talking about that shitty "walk the road short" that I released the trailer just about a year ago, sense I have gotten tired and bored by that project and instead trying to make something completely different.
My initial idea for a short was going to be a auto biopic/self reflective short, but then I got tired and bored of the idea, and I realized how pretty much everybody else is making the same thing.
I'm not saying that its a bad thing thou, on the contrary I thinks its incredible to see all this different people share their own personal experiences with the world, all im saying that this kind of short film is kind of overdone and I didn't want to feel like another marble in the pile. so instead I wanted to do the polar opposite, something fun, faced paced and exciting, something that makes people escape from their personal problems for a few minutes and have a good time, at the same time I wanted to do more of a horror film, because I find the horror genre to be the most fascinating kind of movie, mostly because you can make just about anything you like with it.
I have already finished the script and started shooting some scenes for the actual movie, I wanted to finish shooting this week, but every time I plan shooting with some friends and all, something unexpected happens that always ends up foiling my plans, making the short film was going to be far more complicated than I though, but with a little hard work and patience I am going to be able to finish it. also my house is quite crowded which made for some scenes to be way more harder to shoot than what they actually are.
I am also getting my very first job interview soon, I want to look good make an impression, make my boss hire me so I can work and earn some money, that way I can start disciplining myself into working more and wasting less time, because I will be 18 next year (shit time goes by so fast) and I want to be productive and prepare myself for the time that I will live alone for the first time.
I have started watching some film like Her, children of the corn 3, girl with the dragon tattoo and the Og superman, but I have never brought myself to finish them, im not saying that the films are boring or anything, Im also not saying that I am a depressed and miserable boyo that is seeking for attention, but rather that I simply lost enthusiasm for watching so many films in so little time.
so here is what I am going to do.
first of all im gonna quit the long reviews (unless its truly necesary) the constant urge to make these reviews has stressed me out a lot, it has made me lose my concentration in many test and made me slip in many exams, because my anxiety to make the reviews ends with me sacrificing my study time in order to make those reviews, I also want to make some more quality over quantity reviews, im aware that many of my followers don't really read my reviews, because of how long and tedious they are (also my shitty grammar skills) so because of this I want to lower the quantity and increase the quality, I want to make shorter and more focussed reviews because I want my audience to actually enjoy reading my reviews.
I am also going to take a break from movies, at least until more short movie comes out (which I will add to youtube and letterbox hopefully) because I want more time to focus on making my own work, instead of judging someone else's work.
sure they are some tv shows I have started but haven't finished yet like breaking bad and the owl house and I will try to get to them eventually.
And finally, I want to be as productive as possible in my summer and enjoy it to its maximum potential, so I can be ready for my final year of high school.
Does this mean Im leaving this site? of course not, I will still show up at least once or twice a day and respond to some of the comments, and interact with some of you guys, but I want to make sure my life outside the internet is just as good.
so thank you all for all your support and help you have shown me, and it makes me very happy (also I reached 200 followers, OMG I never thought this day would come)
