Paint Drying
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Review by BlakeMower Patron

Paint Drying 2016

Rewatched Aug 13, 2023

Ok I’ve made posts like this before but this is truly rock bottom. This time next year I will not be alive. I’m trying really hard to find a way to not make this sound self absorbed but I’m not built for this world. The way I’ve made myself be is not ready for anything past 18. These are the consequences of everything I’ve subjected myself to. No one elses. I was told by a close friend after I last attempted that I was being lazy by trying to take my own life. So if that’s what peoples image of s*icide has become then yes. I am lazy. I’m doomed to be stuck in a cycle of depression and anxiety. Not to mention being in a world that’s becoming more and more hell bent on seeing people like me die. You win DeSantis. I’m out. I have nothing to look forward. You know that’s what I think the saddest part is. The next thing I look forward to is posting a quip review for Wish (2023) that I thought was pretty funny. That’s the only bit of good I see myself contributing to this world anytime soon. I make myself suffer, I make my family suffer, and everyone around me. I have no idea where I’ll go but I hope that something better comes along. I’m not doing anything to myself today and I probably won’t know it’ll be my last when that day comes. Thanks for the 1,000 likes on Ruby Gillman. I imagine that’ll be the biggest thing I contribute to our world so it’s nice to see it before I go.

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