My friend Jackie is a psychologist in Brooklyn. We've been friends since 5th grade, and lived together for two years in college. I was often a convenient guinea pig for some of her psych class "tests," so she probably knows me better than I know myself. That being said, she sent me this in an e-mail this morning after checking out my blog and my quilts:
"You're using primary process thinking in your quilting...it's your Id working, not your Ego or your Superego."...and had the nerve to leave on vacation without further explanation.
Intrigued, I started Googling. It's been too long since Psych 101, and discovered that indeed, a little information is dangerous in the wrong hands, because I start finding all these abstracts about how Primary Process Thinking is associated with bipolar disorder and schizophrenia, among other psychotic disorders. Ack!
And Jackie is driving through the mountains of Pennsylvania, totally out of cell phone range. I think she did that on purpose just to mess with me.
Then I find this little nugget to cling to:
"Primary-process thinking has also been found to relate to creativity in normal populations."Phew! That makes me feel better! I've never felt that I aspired to normalcy...until today, considering the alternative.
I find another article:
"In accordance with psychoanalytic theory; Primary Process Thinking consists of those mental processes which are directly related to functions of the primitive life forces associated with the Id, and is characteristic of unconscious mental activity; marked by unorganized, non-logical thinking and by the tendency to seek immediate discharge and gratification of instinctual urges."First of all, they really need to make up their mind: hyphen or no hyphen? Caps or no caps? Part of my job is editing, and this makes me crazy...but not
that kind of crazy -- you know, the
good kind.
And then I think about the way I start a project, how I pick my colors and choose my designs. And how most of my quilt tops are what I've always referred to as "experiments," because there's rarely any planning involved -- I just pull fabrics from my stash and start sewing. It's a very spontaneous and stream-of-consciousness approach...if I overthink a project, it's usually too forced and ends in something I'm not happy with, so I tend to just go with my instincts. It also might explain why I bounce from project to project if one isn't moving fast enough for me to see results.
Not sure what I'm going to do with this newfound info, and I could be totally off base with how I have chosen to interpret it (I am, after all, marked by unorganized non-logical thinking). But rest assured Jackie's going to get an earful when she gets back home.