NinthShinigami’s review published on Letterboxd:
“Sometimes, life is like this dark tunnel. You can't always see the light at the end of the tunnel. But if you just keep moving... you will come to a better place.”
I’m not exactly sure how to tackle this. I’ve never been the best with words, and honestly I don’t know what I want to achieve with saying this. But here I go:
I’ve recently seen a lot of activity in my circle, activity that I’m not very comfortable with seeing in any form. A couple of my buddies on insta, and fellow followers and friends on here have been putting out suicide logs. I am genuinely concerned and worried for the well-being of each of you, as a fellow user on here. I just wanted to say that guys, for those of you sharing those thoughts, I wanna tell you to please not give up. Especially over something like politics or the election.
Your life, no matter who you are, is worth so much more than that. To give up on life, to just call it quits? No, no, no. Stop. Listen to what you’re saying or what you’re thinking. The sad fact of the matter is, like it or not, you’re going to have these struggles and rough patches in your life. Last week, I had en exam for a university class I’m really struggling with. Some of my peers said they would kill themselves over the grade, a bit jokingly, but honestly you can never be too sure.
Over a university class? Over an election? Guys, we need to persevere. Push past these issues you’ve got in life and show you’re not going down easy or at least not without a fight. Living is how you fight. Keeping that smile on your face, enjoying the things you enjoy, that’s how you fight against it. This year has proven to be eventful for me as well. I almost thought I failed another class earlier this year in Spring, but you know what? After 4 harsh months, a miracle happened and I passed the class.
My cousin died the same week of heart complications. Something unfortunate and fortunate in the same week. My celebrations were cut short, or at least whatever happiness I felt was immediately taken again. Then my Florida Panthers won their Stanley Cup, something that had never happened in 30 years of the franchise. I got to see my childhood heroes together again finally onscreen the way they were meant to be in Deadpool and Wolverine. I got to see another My Hero movie in the theater. I got to go to Chicago.
Life keeps going. It’s gonna keep going. I believe in God, and whether or not you do, I’m sure you believe in something greater than yourself out there. Life itself is almost like this incomprehensible thing, while seemingly easy to understand as well. It’s gonna give you lemons. Make the most of them what you will. It’s gonna throw wrenches and potholes your way. Either brake, and smell the roses, or swerve, and continue forward. Just don’t let the bad times drag you down.
Just please… fucking please… suicide is something that I’ve unfortunately have come into contact with indirectly. A cousin of my cousin I mentioned committed suicide just last year… it’s tragic, and the effect it has on your loved ones… I mean even the faces on my dad’s customer’s family’s faces when their son killed himself over an un loyal partner in a relationship… there was probably someone way better for him out there, and he never gave himself the chance to do so… it’s just so fucking depressing to me. There was even Lilith, a fellow user here on letterbox, whose account is now in memoriam. On an app, a site, where I go to escape my real life troubles and struggles… where we all do…
So please, you know I’m talking to you when I write this: I urge you, I fucking BEG you, please please please reconsider. Please, strengthen yourself. Grit your teeth. Clench your asscheeks. Show this world and life you’re far stronger and superior. Give yourself that shot. That chance. That opportunity. Cause you only get one life. Please, don’t just call it quits and game over. There’s no reset button. There’s no going back. Suicide or killing yourself is not the answer, joke or not. Cause it’s sure as fuck not a joke to me. Thank you, and I pray each and every single one of you damn beautiful fucking souls that find this or read this can make something out of what I just said.
Peace be with y’all, and have a wonderful rest of your day. God bless.
