super cool blog - !!!!

i talked in a last post abt nothing except everything, hoping that the movie will leave my head so i could focus on more important stuff, such as drawing or school ;-;, BUT VERY MUCH SADLY IT DIDNT. ive been thinking about it FOR SO LONG, not bc the movie itself is thought-provoking, BUT the reactions of the film are, and tbh that led me to think abt it too hard and to check the new letterboxd reviews everyday, also, that movie hitted waaayyyy to close to home since its literally everything i fear my art and myself are, specially due how easy i could end up like it due to how close the filmamker and i are in conditions and surriondings (istg ik many people here who are like him, praise him mindlesly...but idk i feel like some people would hate him), or the fact i was kinda like him when i was 12. yeah thats kinda terrifying, so maybe thats why it hasnt left my mind since then.

i would absolutely LOVE to talk abt it more in depth, but idk since it would take me soooo long and id like to do it better since rn most of my thoughts are pretty much a mess and i need to get more evidence to fully sustain them, plus i dont think ill post it here, BUT ON A FULLY ANIMATED YT VID CUZ IM AN AMBITIOUS IDIOT. it will take a lot of work i havent done,but id like to do it once school is over so i could finish it 4 January idk. or maybe i should post my messy thoughts rn???? idk, but I highly doubt this movie would leave me soon…

im gonna kms if this actually becomes a special interest 😭