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    If Only
    If Only
    If Only
    Audiobook9 hours

    If Only

    Written by Judith Arnold

    Narrated by AJ Ferraro

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    About this audiobook

    Recent retiree Ruth Singer is reflecting on her life and wondering what direction it might have taken if she'd made different choices. 


    What if she'd learned to ski? 


    What if she'd had her tubes tied before her difficult youngest child was born? 


    What if she hadn't quit her rock band to attend college? 


    What if she'd run off with Danny Fortuna when she'd had the chance? 


    Not only does Ruth ponder these questions, she lives those what-if lives in her imagination. As the chaos of her real life swirls around her, she contemplates the roads she never took, the choices she never made, and comes to understand how she became the woman she is – and why.


    A novel that will resonate with every reader, If Only is at once a poignant excursion into one woman's life and a guided tour through every internal conversation we've ever had.

    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherThe Story Plant
    Release dateOct 19, 2021
    ISBN9781611883305
    If Only
    Author

    Judith Arnold

    Writing under the pen name Judith Arnold, Barbara Keiler is the author of eighty-six published novels. She has been a multiple finalist for RWA's Rita Award, and she's won several Reviewer's Choice Awards from RT Book Reviews, including awards for Best Harlequin American, Best Superromance, Best Series Romance, and, most recently, Best Contemporary Romance Novel. Her novel Love In Bloom's was honored as one of the best books of the year by Publishers Weekly. Her Superromance Barefoot In The Grass has appeared on the recommended reading lists of cancer support groups and hospitals.

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