i am so fucking disappointed, as a human, as an american, and as a pennsylvanian. however, i don’t know if this is stupid or not, but even though i’ve struggled with depression for almost half of my life, i still have hope that things will turn out okay in the end, both with the world and my own situation. i know that not everything will, but i’m trying my best to look at the positives. my family is transphobic, but i doubt they would ever hurt me physically or try to kick me out (especially because my mom already knows), and their opinions don’t matter to me anymore because they voted for him. i’m still determined to transition and cut them off whenever i leave; hell, i think i’m even more determined now. i graduate from community college next year and i’m going to look into moving to a nearby blue state to get my bachelor’s degree there (i’m already from PA so a lot of them are very close; i’m very lucky in that regard), and i’m also going to try to start transitioning medically as soon as i can and start seeing a therapist again for the first time in a while. i already had a consultation with a gender specialist a little while ago so i’m hoping that i can get right back on that, even if it takes a little time. i was going to wait to transition because i assumed—not being complacent—that harris was going to win, but i literally don’t care at this point. i need my mental health to get a little bit better before i can come out to everyone, but i’m so tired of hiding, and i’m going to take advantage of the opportunities that i still have. i wouldn’t recommend this to every trans person, especially if you live in a red/conservative area (no matter what country you’re in), but i have doctors and a best friend that support me, and i’m not giving up. i’m fucking terrified right now, so i’m not saying “everything will be just fine and nothing bad will happen ✨🌈🦄” because that would be ignorant as fuck, but i want to say that no matter what happens, we have each other. i know that we’re a community through and through, and i still have faith in humanity despite all of this. we’ve been around for so long, and there is nothing that an old man with excessive amounts of orange face paint and a toupee could do to eradicate us. no matter what, we will always exist, and if we stay strong and support each other like humans are known to do, then i know we can get through this together. think about how much we’ve survived throughout the centuries. many have tried, but no one has been able to get rid of us, and i believe that no one ever will. i’m going to live my life proudly as a trans man for all of my trans siblings that aren’t/weren’t able to do so, and they’re never going to take that away from me. they can kill me before they can take away my identity and who i am. if you’re able, start saving up and doing as much as you can (i.e. medically), since ***** won’t be inaugurated until january, and it may take a long time before any laws are passed in the right’s favor due to it being a long process. for those that are more vulnerable than you, help them, and for any of you, never give up hope. i know things seem incredibly hopeless right now, and i’m dreading the day ahead of me (i’ll no doubt have to talk about the election in my mass comms class), but even though my trumpie mom is wrong about a lot of things, this morning she told me to take it one day at a time, and that’s what i’m going to do. i love all of you, and i know that we can get through this. there are people out there that have common sense and kindness, so never forget that. if anyone needs anything, you can comment on this post or message me on discord at 6belmont. i won’t judge, and i should be around most of the day, even though i have to go to school (at least i only have twelve days left of the semester). even though there are so many stupid, hateful people out there, i believe there are just as many, if not more, accepting, kind people that stand up for what’s right. if humanity’s situation were “every man for himself”, we would’ve been wiped out as a whole centuries ago, but that never happened, and i know it never will, because we as humans are persistent and bent on survival even in the worst of chances. i’ll leave this off on a quote about trans persecution from one of my favorite band frontmen, gerard way, since i love the guy:

“in the face of extermination, say fuck you.”