+ I very much need to stop mentally writing DW posts. Those drafts don't transfer, brain! As in: hi! Long time no see?

+ Once again a failboat about getting my health certificate so I could go back to work. Actually had to borrow some money from my dad. But the doctor seemed very optimistic that if i stuck to the plan I'd be ready for the next trip in February, and luckily I did some work when the boat was docked for repairs, so a bit of wages incoming there.

Meanwhile, I'm on a strict low carb diet and walking every day.

+ To help with structure and meal times I decided to visit my mom, and I'll mostly be here until after Christmas. it's very nice to be back in her cozy house! And my nephew loves going out hunting for Pokemons with me. Today I stuck my chilly hands down the back of his sweater for fun, and he refused to come close to me the rest of his visit. Then after leaving, he came back in just to give me the hug he didn't want to give my cold ass when he was leaving. Without prompting lol. So adorable.

+ There's a bunch of Christmas markets coming up starting this weekend, hopefully I'll have some pics to share.

+ I'm only playing three low-stakes games rn, Marvel Snap,Pokemon Go, and Disney Dreamlight Valley. A safe way to avoid emotional overwhelm :p I will say Snap has delighted me with yet another fantastic Sera alternate card art, and the new DLC for DLV has a super cozy bookish land added and a bunch of cute origami birds I'm chasing, new outfits make of book pages, book nooks scattered all over the place, etc. *burrows down in cozy*

+ Hmm not sure if I have it in me to try for #Rec-cember this year. But I rarely read fic and rec even rarer still. Boo me.

+ Enjoyed Agatha All Along, but there were some internal inconsistencies that kept me from falling into it fully (so so happy to see all the icons it's getting though, and that a queer witchy show got such strong ratings). Right now we've just started watching the Ronja Robbersdaughter series on Netflix. Only one episode in, but I like the cast and adore the setting. Mossy woods and creepy beings yay! Babylon 5 co-watch is plodding along, we saw 2x09 The Coming of Shadows yesterday. Seriously such a strong three episode streak that I've enjoyed tremendously.

+ Since I'm on my brother's infinite internet now, I dove right back into tumblr last night and gorged on fanart. The Interview With the Vampire fandom is eating good. I was going to continue, then remembered I haven't watched Arcane yet and got my butt out of there.

But lusting for more arts, today I make a BlueSky account: goodbyebird.bsky.social

It then immediately started showing internal server errors whoops I broke it

+ Um have some icons?




H E R E

+ The combo of a week at the cabin with my brothers and nephew and a lot of hiking + my mom visiting for three weeks knocked me straight on my ass. Coupled with an upcoming veranda repair due to the apartment below having water leak in - they kept postponing it for a couple of weeks, so I was in constant dread mode - then the guy below texted me they'd been given his keys instead and would put up scaffolding. Thankfully nobody showing up in my apartment every day! but they're still right outside my living room/kitchen all day, and it's noisy as heck, so I'm hiding in my bedroom with the sound cancelling iPods when I'm home. And then everything is ruffling in the evening, and it sounds like someone is walking around on my ceiling all the time. My dumb brain has no chill :/

Also got a text he'd given them my phonenumber because they requested it. That's two days ago. have I heard anything? Nope.

Bonus of the weather being entirely unpredictable, so I'm not out walking much.

Anyways. See how i disappear from the internet for weeks on end? So mindless. Very depressed.

+ I've picked up Pokemon GO again in an effort to trick my brain into going outside more. And my stupid brain is indeed falling for it :D

Today I walked around for about 90 minutes, caught one shiny, two new Pokemons, and my second 100% (an adorable green Deerling). I just discovered that one and did a happy dance on my couch lol. Anybody looking for friend in game btw? I do try to use nice places and stickers on my postcards.

I also have a referral code: CHMDD7QBX, if you've been away for a while it should work and get us both some nice bonuses.

+ Tonight is the weekly episode of Babylon 5, looking forwards to it. We're up to 1x17. Could it be I make it through an entire season before feeling overwhelmed and dropping out? A shocking development! (eta 1x18, first double episode/what will from now on be known as Secret Baby™)

+ Still unemployed. Now that the bottleneck of visits and incoming repair has somewhat cleared up, I hope I can seriously start tackling it next week. Thankfully I had a good lump of money saved up, knowing my brain is unreliable and I'd need it sooner or later. Crossing fingers and toes I can find something that doesn't wear me down entirely.

+ ( some music I've enjoyed today. )

Well guess who fell down the depression hole again. (It me) Did start getting better again ever so slowly in January, and I am now back to my semi-functional self, with hopes of actually Doing Stuff, Seeing People, and Unfucking My Apartment (I'm half-way! sorta!).

Some nice things
+ Got to spend the winter holiday at the cabin with my nephew and absolutely steep him in all things Star Wars. He got a 20 figure SW set as a belated Christmas present - his favorite is Lando; I feel so vindicated! - and my brother B got him started on a movie before they even made it to the cabin.
+ Started the year with a No Buy for flat games, and I've held fast 💪 thinking it's soon time to finish up my BG3 run, but still biding my time on some smaller games I'm not so invested in. Hopefully I'll have the headspace once my living space is in better shape.
+ I HAS A BED. It's big but not too big, one single mattress so no more middle-dip, and my new bed linens are the nicest I've ever had. Big thumbs up all around (though I'm currently not in bed because my sleep schedule is fucked and in need of un-fucking).
+ The bed came at the tail of me sorting through my whole bedroom, tossing some stuff, organizing the rest, hanging another picture plus some curtains, and giving the whole place a thorough wash including the ceiling and walls.
+ Decided on three other images to get framed, and I've a somewhat solid idea of what to do with some of the other shiny posters I have. That'll have to wait until next year though; nice frames are costly.
+ There's a teeny tiny chance I can actually make it to vidukon_cardiff this year, prayerhands emoji, etc. I haven't been able to go since pre-plague, and gosh do I miss their faces.
+ A discord I'm in with a few folks just started a Babylon 5 rewatch last Monday, one episode planned per week. B5 is part of my after school tv brain soup, will be nice to revisit for sure (and boy does that show do character introductions and speeches well). It's nice to have someone to chat with along the way.
+ If you could say I'm in any fandom atm, it would be Dune. Though yt is doing its very best to chip away at my enjoyment, covering the whole stretch from "this is why Dune has saved cinema/best sci fi movie ever/etc", "OMG FEYD-RAUTHA so complex omg so honorable omg", to "the problem with the white saviour trope" (how fucking textual does the text need to be?). But at least now I've seen both films - and Messiah has been confirmed for later on - so I feel I can hop into fic and whatnot without fear of spoilers.

I forgot how much add to dictionary I have to do when I'm on a new laptop, bah. Still a bit iffy on the new create entries page, but I gotta get over that hump sooner or later. I've missed you all, very very much <3