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ONE:
THE THRESHOLD
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ON THE EDGE OF INFINITY - AGAIN
I found myself in a brightly lighted room, with an
intense sense of de-je vu. The white marble floor, shelves filled with books lining
the walls, and the feeling of anticipation, it was all very familiar. I took a
deep breath of the cool, sparkling fresh air, and I remembered. I had been here
before. This was the Threshold, a place of transition. I turned and looked toward the end of the room behind
me. Sure enough, it was open, and below, I knew, was the world I had lived in
most of the time for the last 85 years. I had had fleeting dream-like memories
of this place before, usually while in deep meditation. My first memory of this
place was when I came here to meet with spiritual advisors prior to entering this
human life on Planet Earth on October 7, 1936.
I turned back around because I felt sure that my
spiritual advisors were there. I heard the words: “It’s time!” With a thrilling
surge of excitement, I thought: “Oh! My life is over. I’m going Home!”
“No,” I heard a deep, gentle voice say, “Not yet.
It’s time for you to put it all together.” A volume from a nearby shelf was open
on the table in front of me. I saw the title page. It read: On the Edge of
Infinity … The author was me! As I leafed through it, I saw chapters,
paragraphs, and sentences that looked very familiar.
But, if I am supposed to author this book, how
can it already be here? The answer came before the question was even fully formed
in my mind:
“This is the Threshold. A place where the past,
present, and future are all present. You are on the Edge of Infinity.”
I reached out and felt the cover of the book. It
was a rich brown leather emblazoned with gold letters. I picked it up. It was
heavy; it was real. I looked up. I pictured one of my spiritual guides, the one
who had protected me so many times, and this moment seemed to merge with the
moment I had experienced here about 85 years ago. I seemed to be reliving that moment
when I was here before. Time travel? I thought. “Time is an illusion,” came the
answer, “created by the drawing of distinctions for the purpose of individual soul
evolution.”
“Oh, dear God, no!” I thought. “Do I have to go
through all that again? Being born, puberty, the challenges of
surviving, being struck by lightning, living through earthquakes and tornadoes,
chased through the Hejazi Dessert by Bedouins who wanted to behead me, flying
half-way around the world on a plane with a bomb that could explode at any
minute, several near-death experiences, and watching others die, losing
everyone I ever loved?” More than a dozen times during this life, I have
narrowly escaped violent death. But many times, I knew that my spirit guides had
protected and/or saved me; why, I didn’t know. Was I going to have to do it all
over again?
“In a sense, yes, you have to keep doing it over,
until you get it right! That is the situation for every soul on this planet! But,
no, that is not the purpose of this revisiting of the past. It is simply to
give you an overview of the timeline of several lives, so that you may see the
purpose of those lives, and to remind you of the goal.”
Suddenly, with a sensation of expanding vision, I
could “see” several life stories, strung out across many centuries, linked together
by several common strands, like a braided rope, spun around the central spirals
of DNA molecules. From where I was, they appeared to stretch away forever into
both the infinite past and into the infinite future. It was kind of like
standing between two parallel mirrors, but when my attention was directed to a
specific life, the image expanded into minute detail and clarity. I could see
details of lives in a city on the large island Plato called the continent of
Atlas or Atlantis, lives in the Himalayas, India, Ancient Egypt, Thule, the
Holy Land, Alexandria Egypt, France, Scandinavia, Germany, and the United
States of America.
“Why can’t I remember these details of past lives
during my present life, in the same way I can still recall the memories of my
childhood?” It seemed to me that that would be very helpful!
“Yes.” Came the answer. “But, for an individual
conscious soul in a physical body, the brain is a finite physical thing with a finite
number of brain cells. In most cases, that number is insufficient to contain
all of the detailed memories of even one life, never mind two, or several. It
is only when you are outside the confines of a physical body that you can have
access to the field of memories existing in the infinity of Primary
Consciousness.”
The lives I envisioned stretched over a period of
about 6,000 years, but I understood from the writings of one of my spiritual
guides, that 24,000 years was the length of the time cycle from the highest
point in mental and spiritual virtue of conscious beings on this planet, to the
lowest point, and back again. In my present life, the world was just starting
on the upward half of the cycle, just over 1500 years into the 12,000 years of
increasing mental and spiritual virtue. As I looked backward and forward at the
waxing and waning of intelligence, wisdom, and spirituality, I asked: “Are we
doomed to go around in this circle, over and over again, forever?”
“No. Think of it as if it were a school for
souls. The school may continue for thousands of cycles, or even forever, but
the souls living through each 24,000-year cycle are just one class of students.
Each soul in the class has the opportunity to progress from a sort of kindergarten
of awareness, to something far beyond a PhD in general knowledge, wisdom, and
compassion. Those who graduate from each class may move on, but for each soul,
the optimum path is not a circle, but an upward spiral, moving from a state of bare
awareness at the beginning, to Cosmic Consciousness at the end, - if all the
challenges are met and all the lessons are learned.”
Seeing the enormity of all of this, I felt a
little dizzy, like I was going to be sick of my stomach. It reminded me of the
extreme vertigo I had when going out of my body and back in again several times
in the Great Pyramid on the Giza Plateau in 2010. My physical body was calling me
back to my life in Earth’s spacetime. I focused on the mental image of one of my
spiritual guides.
”I have so many questions!” I protested, as I
tried to center myself, to stop the dizziness and gather my wits so I could get
some answers to a few more questions. “The fact that it takes so many lives to
learn all the ‘lessons’ is completely overwhelming, and not remembering past
lives makes it so difficult and depressing for the average person! Is there any
way to alleviate this suffering and give people some hope right now? And what was
meant by ‘It is time to put it all together’?”
“First of all, know that it is possible
for people now alive to ‘graduate’ in one lifetime, but it is very difficult
because of the current low level of average spiritual virtue. Everyone alive at
this time has to contend with the low level of understanding among incarnate
souls in general, and the perversion of human nature that leads to the
corruption of the governments of all nations and the resulting crimes against humanity
in the name of a supposed greater good. That is why it has been said that only
one in thousands will seek, and of a thousand who seek, rarely even one, will
find! But there is hope: To achieve the goal in this lifetime, Love is the key,
but the world of human civilization is being pulled in the wrong direction
right now. It is the dark side of human consciousness working against the progress
toward freedom and integrity. That is why the scientific discovery and proof of
the existence of the non-physical part of reality is so important right now.
That is the central aspect of the Truth that you agreed to be part of in this
life. – Yes. it is time to put it all together.”
I understood that this was a reference to the
discovery of gimmel, the non-physical third essence of reality. My attention
was directed back to the series of connected lives that I am associated with,
to the central concept that links all of the lives together. It is the
connection between the spiritual and the physical. It is the connection between
the wisdom of the distant past and the science of the distant future. It is
putting consciousness into the equations of relativity and quantum physics. It is
the meeting of the finite and the infinite. It is the edge of Infinity and the
edge of Eternity. But hundreds of papers and six books with the proofs in them,
have already been published, three on my own, and three with other credible
scientists, and yet, very few mainstream scientists seem to have taken any
notice.
“That was to be expected. The world of human
civilization is being pushed and pulled in the wrong direction right now,
especially by governments, mainstream science, and organized religion. The
Infinite Source of everything is being denied and derided by many prominent people
in all three types of organizational establishments. Governments based on
dialectic materialism, materialistic scientism, and most organized churches are
replacing true religion, demanding the virtual worship of false idols like
egoist fame, money and material possessions. If the human race is to survive,
it must eschew the false doctrines of those who seek to replace God and rule
the world.”
I saw several potential future timelines,
resembling many of the futuristic science fiction movies we’ve seen recently, all
ending in disaster. Only one, populated by human beings filled with honesty,
integrity, peace, and love, continues on toward the real goal.
Dr. Vernon Neppe and I have published the proof,
and spiritual scientists and other spiritually minded souls may realize the
importance of that proof in the future. But for now, the majority of the
inhabitants of the Earth are not mathematicians or scientists, and many are
being forced to seek the Truth for the first time in their lives by the current
crisis. “It is those Truth Seekers for whom you need to put it all together.
And yes, it is time!”
But I shrank back in doubt. “I don’t feel very
confident that I can do this! What if I fail?”
The response came: “Your lack of temerity is
understandable. And there is no guarantee. But remember this: If there is no
challenge, there is no victory. Also, when overwhelmed by circumstances,
remember that you are always on the edge of Infinity, with access to an
abundance of resources.”
Before I could ask another question, I was awake,
back in my bed in my home on the edge of the Ozarks Wilderness. It was 7:00 AM,
December 5, 2021.
As I went about my
morning routine, I thought about what I had just experienced. Was it real? Or
was it just a dream brought on by the world-wide Covid hysteria and things that
I had been thinking about? I had had recurring dreams before, in which I
recognized a place or situation that I had dreamed about more than once. But this
was different. It was a recurrence of a memory that I had recalled in
meditation. I had been thinking about the idea of a threshold between states of
consciousness before that night. In fact, I had posted a discussion about the
threshold between waking and sleeping, dreaming and the fourth state of
consciousness, a state that Yogis call turiya, on my Transcendental
Physics blogsite just two days before. Here are excerpts from it:
“Have you ever found yourself in that curious state of
consciousness existing somewhere between sleeping and waking, when you suddenly
realize that you have the one and only key to the mystery of life; you have
found the answer that makes perfect sense and makes everything fit
together … only to have it fade away as you awaken again to the
less-than-perfect world that you know as your life? If so, then perhaps you
have, from the third state of consciousness, the dream state, between waking
and sleeping, glimpsed the miraculous fourth state of consciousness that the
Yogis call Turiya, or Pure Consciousness.
“When coming back from a deep sleep, there is a moment
when you are neither here nor there, not yet awake, but not asleep either. You
are lingering on the threshold. Being on a threshold is like being in a
doorway. It could be between two rooms, or between inside and outside. But
being on the threshold between sleeping and waking is being between worlds. you
are actually between states of consciousness. A threshold could be an entrance
or an exit, depending on which way you are going. But if you stop on this
threshold, and look around, you find yourself not just between two worlds, but
four worlds! You are at the crossroads between four states of consciousness:
waking, sleeping, dreaming, and Turiya, or Pure Consciousness. This is an
extremely interesting and fortuitous place to be!”
THE MISSION GOING FORWARD
OK, let’s suppose that I was actually called to that
particular threshold by my spiritual guides. Who exactly, are they, and what
were they trying to tell me?
From the day of my initiation in 1960 into the
practice of the Kriya form of Raja Yoga taught by Paramahansa Yogananda,
virtually every day I begin my meditations by calling on the line of the Spiritual
Masters. I seek to invoke their presence and blessings by calling their names: “Lord
Jesus Christ, Bhagavan Krishna, Mahavatar Babaji, Lihiri Mayasaya, Swami Sri
Yukteswar, Paramahansa Yogananda, Friend, Beloved God!” and I have felt their
response, protection, and guidance many times.
But what is meant by “put
it all together”? Isn’t that what Dr. Neppe and I
have done? I provided the mathematical proofs and physical interpretations, and
Dr. Neppe adroitly added the metaphysical, philosophical, and neurological science,
and together, we created the Triadic Dimensional Vortical Paradigm (TDVP). He coined
the neologism “Biopsychophysics” to describe the new discipline of TDVP. But it
is even more multidisciplinary than that. To fully understand TDVP, some
knowledge of pure mathematics, symbolic logic, modular arithmetic, set theory,
G. Spencer Brown’s Laws of Form, analytical geometry, topology, quantum
physics, relativity, physical chemistry, organic chemistry, biology,
psychology, physiology, neurology, philosophy, metaphysics, epistemology, and
ontology, is required.
A day later I woke knowing that I had the answer.
My own words came back to me: “Dr. Vernon Neppe and I have published the proof,
and real scientists and other spiritually minded souls will realize the
importance of that proof in the future. But for now, the majority of the
inhabitants of this Earth are not mathematicians or scientists, and many are
being forced to seek the Truth for the first time in their lives by the current
crisis. It is those Truth Seekers for whom I need to put it all together.”
We already have put it together for scientists
and mathematicians, if any of them care to follow the logic and detailed proofs
and verifications with mainstream experimental data, but due to the
multidisciplinary nature of the TDVP model, and the narrow academic specialization
of training in today’s universities, polymaths are rare, and few have the time or
desire to actually study TDVP, especially if they are deluded by the big lie of
materialistic scientism. I thought when we were able to resolve upwards of
fifty paradoxes and puzzles that the Standard Model of mainstream science cannot
explain, with relatively simple applications of the mathematics and principles
of TDVP, that scientists would sit up and take notice, but only half a dozen
relatively unknown maverick scientists did. Most ignored us.
Three or four members of the mainstream
scientific community who did take a cursory look at TDVP, mainly because of Dr.
Neppe’s standing as a World-Class MD and psychiatrist, quickly went on the
defensive and even labeled TDVP as “pseudo-science” because it addressed issues
outside the self-imposed limits of materialistic scientism and challenged their
basic axiomatic assumptions about the nature of reality. If hundreds of
peer-reviewed papers tied together in Reality Begins with Consciousness,
hardly elicits any comment from mainstream scientists, we may have to concede
that Max Planck was right when he said “Science advances from funeral to
funeral. … A new scientific truth does not triumph by convincing its
opponents and making them see the light, but rather because its opponents
eventually die, and a new generation grows up that is familiar with it.”
I get it. I understand why mainstream scientists are loath to
spend hours, days, and months, trying to understand a new mathematical system
of logic that puts consciousness into the equations of science, especially if
it challenges some long-held basic beliefs, and perhaps might even overthrow the
paradigm on which they have spent their entire career as scientists. The reader
will also appreciate I think, that understanding this does not alleviate the
disappointment that Dr. Neppe and I share. We had spent many years separately, in
individual efforts building our own consciousness-based models of reality before
we started to work together, and now we have spent literally thousands and
thousands of hours working together for more than a decade, with little or no
return. To say that it is depressing, is an understatement. But we really
shouldn’t complain because we freely chose to do it. We did it because we felt
strongly that it was the right thing to do.
My strongest supporter for more than forty years, my loving wife
and partner Jacqui, especially just before she died, urged me to do what my
spiritual mentors and guides are wanting me to do now: “put it all together for
the average human being.” The truth is simple, and the average human being can
understand it. Advanced degrees in science and mathematics are not necessary.
In fact, advanced degrees may actually be a disadvantage for the reasons
mentioned above. After Jacqui passed away three years ago, she still actively continued
to help me from “the other side” to get to the point where I might be able to “put
it all together for the average person”. I have a manuscript that explains how
I know this is true, with a European publisher now. It details a triple-blind
scientific experiment proving that Jacqui survived physical death. But for now,
I intend to post this first installment of my explanation of reality beyond the
physical for anyone who is interested and add to it as often I can.
ERC – Christmas Eve, 2021
TWO: THE EDGE OF INFINITY
While in that Threshold
state between sleeping, dreaming, and waking, in that white marble hall lined
with shelves of books, I was aware that one end of the hall was open and that it
was though that opening that I could descend to Earth as a conscious body of
light, either to be borne by entering into a new developing fetus, or, if physical
death had not occurred, to re-enter my existing physical body. Once a soul
remembers these transitions of consciousness, whether they are occasioned by
traumatic experience, known as a near-death experience (NDE), or with the help
of a spiritual guide, or by learning to leave the physical body intentionally
by focused consciousness expansion, that soul no longer has any fear of death.
I have experienced
several NDEs and non-traumatic out-of-body (OBE) expansions of consciousness
throughout my life, but I never thought of them as unusual, especially as a
child. They occurred so naturally that I assumed that they happened to
everyone. I learned quickly however, to avoid talking about these experiences with
my friends, and especially with adults. Fortunately, I could discuss them with
my parents because they had had similar experiences themselves. My mother remembered
a past life when she was a young girl in a war-torn country with marching
soldiers and horse-drawn cannons rolling by her home. And after an older sister,
who had cared for her as a baby died in a tragic fire, the sister appeared to
her while she was wide awake to tell her that she was still watching over her.
When I first told my
father about one of these experiences, he assured me that it was nothing to
worry about. He said he had similar experiences as a child. “You are a growing
boy,” he said, “and you will outgrow them.” His re-assuring words kept me from being
concerned, but I never did “out-grow them”. I learned later that he didn’t either.
He was visited by a Being of Light in 1949, who advised him to move our family
from the valley of my birth to Phoenix Arizona, after a tornado nearly
destroyed our home. Because of these experiences, and because my parents did
not deny or ridicule my statements about them, I have been able to recognize
and accept my place as an evolving soul temporarily inhabiting a physical body.
As a spiritually evolving
soul begins to remember the Threshold and the transitions that are possible
between states of consciousness, the way he or she reacts to physical danger
changes. Here is an example:
One day in1986, as Resident Hydrogeologist
and Director of Business Development of American-Arabian Technology (AMARTECH) I
was on a Saudia Airlines flight from Jeddah to Riyadh. As we sat on the runway
waiting our turn to take off, I listened to the sonorous reading of the Traveler’s
Prayer, reverberating through the plane in the deep devotional tones of an Imam.
I listened intently because I was trying to learn Arabic and I wanted to know
more about Islam.
“lla ihlmh ila allmha waḥdahs lba sh ryka lh llhn almlk …”
In a few minutes we took off, and as
we banked and turned away from the Red Sea to climb above the Hejazi Mountains
toward Riyadh, I settled into my seat in the First-Class section. I was
thinking about the meeting I would be attending in Riyadh when the pilot
straightened the Boeing 747 out onto the heading for the Capitol City and poured
on the jet fuel to accelerate and climb to cruising altitude. But, almost
immediately, the plane began to shudder violently. The pilot eased off, and after
about ten or fifteen seconds, he attempted to accelerate again. Again, the
plane began to shudder, and again, he backed off. During a third try, the plane
shuddered so violently that everything that was loose rattled. He eased off
again, but this time, the plane banked so sharply to the left that I found
myself looking straight down at the tip of the wing pointed directly at the ground
and the black jagged rocky peaks of the Hejazi Mountains, all too near, just
below us.
The face of the
Palestinian engineer who sat beside me next to the window was unnaturally white,
fear was shining in his eyes, and he gripped the armrest between us with a
vise-like grip. Above the roar of the engines, I heard him say: “Do you think
we will go back to Jeddah?”
“I certainly hope so!” I
replied. “I don’t see any place to land down there!”
I didn’t panic, because I
had been at death’s door many times before, suspended for an instant between
life and death. On this threshold, there are only two major outcomes: Either your
physical life continues, or it doesn’t. If it continues, then beyond the value
of avoiding injury and pain, there really isn’t anything to worry about. If it
doesn’t, then things of the Earth are no longer of concern for you, so there
really is no need to worry. Why not just relax and see what happens? The body
is programmed to avoid pain and destruction, if possible, but at some deep
level of human consciousness we all know, or at least suspect, that
consciousness continues after the death of the physical body, otherwise why
would we fear death? if your consciousness simply ceases to exist when the
physical body stops functioning, as materialists imagine, you won’t know anything
about it. When death seems to be imminent, it is best to relax completely,
because tensing will only increase the likelihood of pre-death injury and pain.
So, I just relaxed, sat back, and watched other people panic. Somewhere behind
me, someone was throwing up, and many were mumbling the ninety-nine names of
God and frantically fingering their Maas’ Baha (prayer beads).
I didn’t learn to relax
in such threshold moments in this lifetime. I brought that knowledge with me.
After you have died a few thousand times and begin to remember some of your
deaths and births, you realize that for you, the between-lives state becomes a
welcome respite, like a rest stop on your spiritual journey, an opportunity to
gather your wits, re-group with family, friends, and spiritual mentors who
happen to have gone on before and remember your purpose and goal. As memory
begins to spill over from previous lives, the new body and mind may even have
physical marks that correlate with memories of past lives. It is not unusual to
find birthmarks and other physical marks on the body corresponding with
injuries that caused death in previous lives. These physical marks usually fade
and disappear when the lesson that
brought the trauma about is learned. As the soul gains more knowledge and
wisdom, expanding its consciousness to include awareness of the state between life
and death, eventually it becomes fully aware that it is always on the edge of
Infinity.
What does it mean to be
on the edge of Infinity? It means to be alive! Consider the seashore. The endless
rhythm of the waves is like the beating of your heart. Away from the shore, across
the coastal plain, or out on the open ocean, the scene becomes monotonous, but
the beach is where two dissimilar worlds meet. Stand on the edge of a mountain
cliff, the edge of an escarpment, and admire the view. That is possible only
because you are on the crest of a wave of much large amplitude and longer
frequency than an ocean wave, but it is a wave, nonetheless. Spirit is
infinitely continuous, while the quantum, and therefore the physical universe,
is finite and discrete. Patterns of periodicity arise from the interface of the
continuous and the discrete. That is what this message is all about. As
sentient beings, we are on the edge of Infinity.
Watch the seasons come
and go, while the sun drives it all with abundant radiant energy. Wave upon
wave, reality breaths in and out in cycles like waves breaking upon the surface
of Eternity, and consciousness exists at the interface of the quantum world and
the spiritual world, between lonely separation and loving oneness, between life
and death. When you are truly fully conscious and aware, you will know that you
are on the edge of Infinity.
ERC - 12/26/2021
THREE:
EXPANDED VIEWS OF REALITY
My mother was not yet twenty years old when I was
born, and like any mother and child, we lived through several crises together
before I was even one year old. A particularly traumatic situation occurred one
day, when my mother was preparing a meal in my grandfather Close’s house. She
was holding me in the crook of her left arm while moving food from the stove to
the kitchen table with her right hand. Being held at a level where I could
reach the table as my mother turned from the table to go back to the stove, I
grabbed a bite of food, popped it into my mouth, and promptly choked on it. I
was only about three months old, and the food was a piece of a tuna patty. It
smelled so good to me that I literally tried to inhale it, and it completely blocked
my air intake.
I remember a ladle clattering on the floor as my
mother turned her full attention to me, shaking me and sticking her fingers
into my mouth trying to see what was causing me to gasp for breath. When my
mother’s frantic attempts to dislodge the food in my throat failed and I
started turning blue, she panicked, ran out the back door, clasping me to her
breast, heading for the service station next door, where my father was working.
The bouncing up and down as she ran dislodged the bit of food. I spit it out,
screaming in pain, and before she reached the service station, I was crying,
but breathing normally again. I mention this incident in this context because
it was probably my first NDE in this life, and during that brief period of time
that I was forced out of the body, I saw things from an expanded consciousness point
of view.
Because I was out of my body, I remember this
incident vividly even though most people, including my mom, dismissed my claim of
remembering it, thinking that I probably just remembered her talking about it
and about how much it frightened her, some years later. I know it is a real memory
however, because I have other memories from events both before and after that,
with visual images of my surroundings. One of those events occurred a few
months later, when we moved into my parents’ first home of their own. When, as
a teenager, I mentioned that I remembered the move, my mother said: “You can’t
remember that Eddie. You were only a few months old!” When I proceeded to describe
details of my visual memory of things that happened, and things that were only
there on that particular day, my mom had to admit that I really did remember it.
I experienced several less traumatic out-of-body events after that, but, as a
child, I didn’t have reason to think that they were unusual, at least not at
first.
Pilot Knob Missouri, the town of my birth, was a
mining town. In the hills around the valley, there were veins of iron, silver,
and other rare metals along geologic contact zones, capped by quartz crystals, that
the miners called “ore blossom”. It was this rare crystalline structure of the
San Francois Mountains that drew me to my birth like a magnetic bullseye. It
was a bullseye made of pre-Cambrian basaltic and granitic intrusions,
surrounded by rings of rhyolites, dolomites, and Ordovician-age limestones. I
can still remember descending from the open end of the marble hall Threshold,
through a starry night toward that geologic bullseye sometime in the Earth-year
1936.
In the summer of 1946, I was nine years old. One
afternoon, I was swimming in a small branch of spring water called Kuhn’s Creek
about a quarter mile from where I was born. The water in the creek, coming from
a number of small springs, one of which was located on my maternal grandparents’
farm, was highly mineralized, containing dissolved elements and compounds from
the contact zones between the igneous intrusive rhyolites and metamorphic
dolomites, marble, and limestone. I had walked across the field alone that
afternoon to fish in the creek, as I often did, but in the heat of the
afternoon, I had decided to cool off by wading into the cool spring water.
A sudden summer thunderstorm came over the
mountains and before I could get out of the water, there was a lightning strike
on the creek, just upstream of the swimming hole where I was standing up to my
neck in the water. I saw the lightning strike, heard the thunderclap, and felt
the electricity surge through the water, and through my body. Surprisingly, I
felt no pain. Instead, I felt my consciousness expanding. I became momentarily
aware of the fish in the water, a snake in a hole in the bank nearby, and the
roots of the grass and trees reaching into the soil on the creek bank. When the
expanded vision faded, I climbed out of the water, retrieved the stringer of
fish I had caught before the storm, got dressed, and went home.
In the Fall of 1947, I was eleven years old.
Sitting in a classroom during a study period, I had a significant spontaneous
expanded consciousness experience. I was looking straight ahead at the big
clock on the wall at the front of the room and the teacher
standing behind her desk between me and the clock. Suddenly, as I breathed in,
the clock, wall, and the teacher’s face expanded like balloons to the point where
they filled my entire field of vision. I could see into the pores of the skin
on the teacher’s face, and the second hand of the clock slowed and until it
stopped moving.
Then, as the air started to flow out of my lungs,
the Clock, the wall, and the teacher began to recede, slowly at first, but they
continued to shrink faster and faster, until they were mere dots in the
distance, and the hands of the clock moved rapidly into the future. Sounds in
the room also expanded and receded in sync with the visual changes. The
clicking of the second hand on the clock, for example, went from its normal volume
and frequency, to slow, booming sledge-hammer-like reverberations as I breathed
in, came to a complete stop, and then reversed the process as I breathed out, all
the way to a rapid, faint tinkling sound, as the clock shrank, approaching a
single point in the distance, when my breath was completely expelled.
This experience seemed to last only a few
seconds, and I could have dismissed it as meaningless “day-dreaming”, except
for the fact that it happened more than once. And at night when I was going to
sleep, I experienced the same thing - a basic expansion of consciousness - in a
slightly different way. With my eyes closed, I became aware that my other
senses were being slowly enhanced to the point where I could feel and hear even
the tiniest movements and sounds, anywhere in the house. I could hear my
father’s pocket watch, an heirloom that had been handed down to him from my
grandfather, ticking three rooms away. When I moved, even a little bit, the
rustling of the bedsheets sounded like an avalanche.
As a natural reflex, I turned my attention inward
to escape the horrendous sounds that made it impossible to sleep, and I began
to hear music that seemed to be pre-existing, behind the other, outer sounds. By
focusing, I could hear the individual instruments contributing to complex
melodies and subtle counterpoint harmonies within beautiful symphonies! And
sometimes there were marches, or sometimes soaring spiritually elevating
melodies. Because these experiences were disruptive, I mentioned them to my
dad, and he told me that they were like hiccups, evidence that I was growing, -
nothing to worry about. It wasn’t until much later in life that I realized that
these experiences were related to, and a natural part of being on the
Threshold, the edge of Infinity.
After my earliest memories of the Threshold,
described above, I have experienced this kind of consciousness-expansion many
times during this lifetime. My life has been punctuated with numerous
experiences of spontaneous expansions of consciousness from birth until the present
day. I have described a few of these experiences before, but for context in
this discussion, I will continue to share my memories of some of them here.
ERC - 12/28/2021
FOUR:
WHERE THERE IS A WILL, THERE IS A WAY
Every life is made up of a series of events
experienced by the individualized consciousness of a soul through one
particular unique dynamic aggregate of atoms, cells, and organs, with which the
soul has temporarily identified. That organic aggregate, with a finite number
of brain cells, is the physical vehicle for that soul for the duration of that
lifetime. The nature of the events that a soul experiences in a lifetime
through a physical body in this way is determined by the cause-and-effect
content of the soul’s past lives and the choices made in those lives and
between lives. Events that are normal for one soul, may seem extraordinary and
bizarre to another soul because we are all at different points in our spiritual
journey from bare, minimal awareness to Cosmic Consciousness.
As human beings, we all have access to the Threshold
described in these posts, and the four states of consciousness: waking,
sleeping, dreaming and Turiya, or Pure Consciousness. The purpose
of these posts is to offer a new explanation of life, conscious experience, and
mental, physical, and spiritual virtue, that is consistent with the scientific
method. The conclusion that you are an immortal soul and that there is meaning
and purpose behind all things is not new, it is consistent with the core
teachings of the Spiritual Masters of all ages, all advanced civilizations, and
all real science. The key to understanding reality has always been, and will
always be, available to you in the depths of your own consciousness. What is
new, is that now there is absolute proof that anyone can understand, that the
non-physical domain of reality is more real than the physical. As a living
soul, you can evaluate this conclusion in the laboratory of your own consciousness,
the nexus of your body, mind, and spirit, which is also the Sacred Temple of
your soul.
The key is complete internal and external
honesty, integrity, and love of self and others. At the low point of
human virtue on this planet, in 499 AD, the average individual alive on the
Earth was unable to comprehend much beyond the basic physical realities related
to survival. Only the most advanced souls, reincarnating from the apex of the
last high point of virtue in 11,501 BC, were aware of Truth. A number of
advanced souls reincarnated between 500 BC and 500 AD to help us through those
dark times. Outstanding among them were Jesus of Nazareth and Siddhartha Gautama
Buddha, but there were many others, who played lesser roles in preserving the
basic truths until the mean mental and spiritual virtue of humanity advanced to
the point that Homo sapiens might survive. I will identify some of them in the
posts to come.
As I have indicated in previous posts, I don’t
believe that you have to have a PhD in mathematics, physics, or any other
specialized discipline to grasp the importance of the discovery of gimmel, the
measurable non-physical part of reality, at this time. Why is it important? Because
belief and faith were absolutely necessary in the times of descending virtue
and the first ascending age, known as the descending and ascending Kali Yugas
(701 BC to 1699 AD) by the ancient Indian Rishis and they are still
essential for the majority of human beings now, but knowing is always better
than belief or faith in the words of others, when proof is available. It is for
this reason that I want to make the proof of the existence of non-physical
reality as available to as many as I can.
There are two kinds of proof: The first happens
when one has the direct, immediate experience of truth. The second is in gaining
indirect knowledge of truth through mathematical or logical proof. The first is
superior to the second, but direct experience of truth is only available to the
majority of humanity at this time of still low spiritual virtue, by what is
known as the Grace of God, which can be attracted by cultivating pure
love and devotion. In the natural process of planetary time where we are now, about
362 years into the 2400 years of the second ascending age, the Dwapara Yuga,
the increase in mental virtue is such that more people are capable of
understanding the proof through reasoning than through the direct experienced of
pure love.
I have been trying to reach people through both
avenues: devotional and intellectual, but because of my background in science
and mathematics, I have tried to make the mathematical logic proof available to
scientists first. TDVP, developed in intellectual partnership with Prof. Vernon
Neppe, MD, PhD, is the culmination of this effort. This new series of posts is
an effort to find a better, more workable mix of the two avenues, intellectual
and devotional. I will continue to try to express the logic-based proof of the
existence of gimmel in terms that the average person can follow, while pointing
to the doorway to spiritual advancement available in the consciousness of every
sentient human being. My sincere hope, dear reader, is that I might be able to
help you to find it.
Organized religiosity, intellectualism, and
scientism are subtle traps. They are like shiny objects that lure truth seekers
off the narrow path that leads to the real goal. The real goal of life and all forms
of existence is the ultimate enlightenment of conscious beings, an ultimate
state of being that some have called Cosmic Consciousness. That is the sole purpose
of creation. Recognition of this fact gives us real hope and real meaning to our
lives. This is especially true when we realize that the goal of ultimate
enlightenment is ours to attain through acquisition of knowledge, alignment
with truth, and spiritual evolution that can be accelerated, delayed, or hampered
by our own actions.
I am hopeful that by this time, if you have read
this far, you understand that I have no idea how many posts there will be in this
series, or even how much detail I will be able to convey. I only write when I
am inspired to write, and even though I am the one writing these words, I do
not think that I am the source of what I write. I leave it up to you to decide
where you think the ideas I express may come from. I can only pledge to make
these ideas as understandable as I can. I will appreciate any comments,
questions, and suggestions from serious readers.
Happy New Year. Rejoice in the potential of 2022.
ERC 12/28/2021
FIVE;
PARADOX AND PROGRESS
I happen to share the birth date of Danish
physicist Niels Bohr. Not the same year, but the same month and day. He was
born in 1885 and died when I was 26 years old. Bohr was one of the main players
in the drama surrounding the birth of quantum physics, and the primary
spokesperson for quantum mechanics in the famous Einstein-Bohr debate over
quantum uncertainty. Albert Einstein, the theoretical physicist who inspired me
to become a scientist when I was fourteen, sparked the debate by proposing an
experiment that challenged the validity of the concept at the heart of quantum
mechanics known as the Heisenberg uncertainty principle. That experiment, based
on the belief that elementary particles were tiny, localized particles of
matter, became known as the EPR paradox because Einstein, Podolsky, and Rosen
were the authors of the paper. The EPR experiment presented physicists with a real
paradox because it demonstrated that, if elementary particles were what physicists
thought they were, then the expected outcome of the experiment disproved the
uncertainty principle. To Einstein, that meant that quantum mechanics was, at
best, an inconsistent or incomplete theory. Niels Bohr understood this, but the
following quote illustrates his attitude toward paradox:
"How
wonderful that we have met a paradox. Now we have some hope of
making progress."
This is the proper attitude for a scientist.
Science only advances when paradoxes within its logical structure are explored
and resolved. If it is a real paradox, it can only be resolved by expanding the
existing model of reality. A real paradox reveals the incompleteness of the
existing theory. All other so-called scientific advances are just the filling
in of the details of an existing model, which requires no original thinking. Problem
solving within the established paradigm is not science, it is engineering. Engineers
are practical thinkers who solve day-to-day problems by applying science-based
technology. I am not denigrating engineering. I made a living for myself and
family for many years as a registered professional engineer (PE). Engineering is about using science to solve
technical problems, while science is about thinking outside the box and testing
hypotheses about the nature of reality. Scientists should be looking for
problems that cannot be solved using the engineering methods existing within
the current paradigm. About problems that lie beyond the reach of engineering
thinking, Bohr said:
“Every
great and deep difficulty bears in itself its own solution. It forces us to
change our thinking in order to find it.”
There is a wealth of insight in these two sentences.
They contain deep truths about problems that can be addressed using mathematics,
the language of science. The first sentence is true about any problem. However simple
and easy, or deep and difficult a problem may be, if it is properly stated in
the language of the paradigm within which it has meaning, then the solution,
i.e., the answer to the question that it poses, is actually contained within
the question itself. Any meaningful problem in an algebra text will demonstrate
this fact.
The information needed to solve a problem is
always contained within the statement of the problem. All that needs to be done
is to translate the statement of the problem from English, German, or whatever,
into mathematical expressions, so that you can use well-defined operations of
calculation to transform the statement, through a series of simple steps, into a
new form that is recognized as an answer. The second sentence relates specifically
to the “great and deep” problems that Bohr concerned himself with as a
scientist. If the problem is truly deep and difficult, we will have to “change our
thinking” i.e., we have to think outside the box by expanding the paradigm, or
developing new methods, to solve it.
I realize that there may be people reading this who
already understand the points I am making. This post is not for them. It is for
the millions of people out there, the average citizens of planet Earth, who
shrink away in horror anytime they see the word “mathematics”. If you are one
of those who hates mathematics, I am quite sure that it is because you were never
taught what mathematics really is. What I want to do here is change the way you
think about mathematics. Let’s start with the meaning of the word. It
doesn’t mean “difficult stuff with numbers and abstract symbols”, as most
people think. The word mathematics
comes from the Ancient Greek word máthēma (μάθημα), meaning “that which is
learned” or “what one is able to know”. Mathematics is not just “the language
of science”, it is the heart and soul of science.
I have had
several years of experience teaching mathematics, from practical applied math
to mathematical physics, and advanced mathematical modeling, so I am not just
blowing smoke rings. My first job, after earning a degree in physics and mathematics,
was teaching math in the Newburg Missouri Public High School, where I was the
complete Math Department. In my second year of teaching there, my students
swept every category in a regional math contest where we were competing with
several much larger schools. Even though I used the textbooks supplied by the
state, I didn’t follow the state lesson plans. I always related mathematical
principles to common-sense ideas that my students could relate to and understand.
Over the years, I have had several very gratifying success stories teaching,
but the first one happened at Newburg.
The
first day of school in my first year at Newburg, a young man from a rural
farming area south of Newburg, walked up to my desk as students were filing into
the classroom and said:
“Mr.
Close, my name is Gary Haven. I just want you to know that I don’t like math. I
am only here because general math is a requirement for all Freshmen.”
“OK
Gary,” I replied, “Thank you for being so honest! I just want you to know that I’m
going to see what I can do about changing your mind about math.”
The
second year Gary took every math class he could cram into his schedule, and
eight years later, he graduated from one of the best engineering schools in the
county with top honors in electrical engineering.
Mathematics
should not be about showing others how smart you are. It should NOT be about
learning how to manipulate abstract symbols to solve complicated problems, even
though you may learn to do that. It should be about learning how to think rationally
in a way that will increase your understanding of reality and make your
thinking more efficient and effective. In my opinion, the way math is taught in
our schools today, from grade school to grad school, is really stupid, and
almost criminal. The way math is fragmented and turned into mindless memorization
of detail, alienates and repels students, robbing them of an opportunity to
develop critical thinking skills.
Learning
to use mathematical tools to solve practical problems is important; but using
calculators and computers to solve numerical problems without understanding the
underlying principles, is a recipe for disaster. Pure mathematics should be
understood to be what it actually is: a simple reflection of how your mind and
the universe works. Science is about what we can say about the reality we
experience, and math is about how we can say it in the most efficient way.
Before I get into my explanation of a system of logic,
I call the Calculus of Dimensional Distinctions (CoDD), a calculus that describes
reality more precisely and efficiently, I want to introduce you to some key
concepts needed to understand non-physical reality. They concern the axiomatic
nature of science and the threshold between every-day consciousness and Turiyananda,
the joy of experiencing pure consciousness.
First, an axiom is a self-evident truth. All systems
of mathematical logic have two or more axioms upon which they are based. Within
any consistent finite logical system of thought, an axiom is a question that
cannot be answered within the system that allows it to be stated as a
meaningful statement. I like to think of an axiom this way:
The Question that cannot be Answered
is the Answer that cannot be Questioned.
We have been told by some very intelligent
people, specifically British mathematical philosophers Bertrand Russell and
Alfred North Whitehead, that there are only three types of statements: 1) True,
2) false, and 3) meaningless. Sounds rather obvious, doesn’t it? If we accept
this declaration, then we can ignore and discard meaningless statements
because, well, because they are meaningless! If statements that appear to be
meaningless in the context of our current understanding of reality are
eliminated from consideration and we accept the statement of Gottfried Wilhelm
Leibniz (another very intelligent person) that for every meaningful
question there must also be a meaningful answer, then every meaningful
statement is ultimately either true or false.
This binary thinking is in fact, the basis of the
logic, philosophy, science, mathematics, and computer technology of Western
Civilization. It turns out, however, that despite the fact that these axiomatic
statements were pronounced by some of the most highly intelligent people of the
world in recent history, none of these statements are true.
In the next installment of this series, I will explain
how and why there are actually four types of statements in any language, including
mathematics, not three, and I will also explain how this fact leads us back to
the threshold of Pure Consciousness and the doorway to extra dimensionality where
we will see how pure number theory relates to consciousness.
ERC – 12/29/2021
