All of the flowers I gave her

Here I am. I failed my last teacher opposition exam. I spent a lot of money, an insane amount of time and effort, all for nothing. This is so traumatic, I don't even want to talk about it anymore (this was back in June-July...)

On the other hand, my niece was born a week and a half ago. Her name is Minerva and I'm in love with her and so proud of my sister.

I'm trying to find myself again. In old places. In new places. I don't know. I'm trying to slowly come back to my older self, the one where I felt at ease. The one that enjoyed time to herself. The one that did not just work her ass off and do everything else before having fun. The creative one, the one that enjoyed doing things. Coding, graphics, videos, podcasts.

I'm trying to find me.

Since I finished playing Orwell Keeping an Eye on You yesterday, I'm starting this game today. It looks fabulous! Plus I love point and click adventures.

In case you wonder how I got so much time on my hands to play this or that game, granted I'm jobless (well I have a couple of small jobs I do on the internet, plus my little candle shop I run with my boyfriend, and I study hard for the next selective opposition exam for teachers), but I'm also with covid right now. So besides it being weekend, which I always spend far from home at my boyfriend's, yeah that's my current situation haha.

I've been playing this super cool game where you investigate people in the name of "The Nation" and uncover a whole intrincated story by reading sites, blogs and listening to conversations. How cool is that? Haha! I hope to find new games like this one because the gosspier in me loves this system 😂.
Edit: SO I finished this game and it was super cool. Lots of plot twists and got me really hooked! Totally recommend it! ♥

I can't help finishing and starting Stephen King books! I literally binge on them. And that's about everything I've been doing lately, except studying.

SO. Last time I posted I went to PortAventura for 3 days straight and made a video about it. Right? Guess where I'll be going again next week HAHAHA.

Just a little wrap up of what life is like lately:

Aaron and I opened a candle shop and it's doing great! I'll talk about this again soon.

I lost my job almost a year ago and have had no luck finding a new one. However I have a small internet job that helps pay the bills.

I'm studying hard for the next official exams that enable you to work as a teacher in the public system here in Spain. Next exam is on summer 2024!

I've been playing lots of videogames and also reading a lot of books. Will talk about those too soon, I hope.

I completely abandoned this place and I'm feeling a bit nostalgic about it lately. Not just DW but the whole site making, graphic making, designing, forum thing. I hate social networks because they killed the way in which we used to create and use websites way back.

Is anyone still making fansites? Any good forums for sharing sites and graphics? Amassment died and it was the only place I knew about and the last one I joined...

I stopped making layouts because I feel like my skills have rotten in comparison to everyone else. Would love to relearn but don't know of any good current resources. Ahh...

I don't know. I'm going on holiday this week and will post again soon when I'm back. Maybe think about the whole creative craving I'm having.

Also for anyone who might be interested, I vlog in Spanish at youtube. Don't know if many of you would be interested, but though I would leave my September wrap up over here anyway:

Watch on YouTube

I'm on vacation until the end of August and I really can't believe it. It's been a hell of a year (I'll be working on my current job for one year starting september). I fucking deserve it, honestly.

What will I do during vacation? Well, I want to basically read, play videogames, spend time with my boyfriend and take a rest.

Maybe even coming back at making graphics? Some Icons, maybe change my current layout here on dreamwidth. Or updating my network! Who knows.

I feel like big changes are coming so I need to be well rested before that happens. At least I hope some things change shortly...

Anyway! A small update to keep this thing alive and kicking. Hope everyone's safe and happy.

Jag är så trött idag. Min mor är sjuk, så vi tog henne till sjukhuset. Nu hon mår bra. Hon är mit mig hemma ♥

My last post was in May. I had such a rough time since January 2020 up until September 2020, and now we are already in February 2021. So what happened?

The pandemic arrived shortly after I lost my father.

I basically had no income and was behind paying bills, with the only help of friends and family.

I couldn't have survived, were not for them ♥

I couldn't see Aaron for 3 months straight, since we were all in confinement.

And, finally, in September, I got a job. It's been 5 months already, this is my first time working in the same place for so long.

I finally got a Nintendo Switch for myself for Christmas, something I had been longing for since it came out.

I can say I'm taking care of myself, paying bills and living an ordinary but calm life lately. If nothing goes terribly wrong, it will be this way up until June 2021.

I hope everyone's doing great. Take care.

I started reading Stephen King's The Stand short before the pandemic spread across the globe. Quite fitting of me to do that. Just in time, girl!

I'm loving it to pieces. I already loved the story, as shown in the TV series from the 90s. And even though they changed bits and pieces of it for TV, as I know now by reading the book, it remains one of my all time faves.

The book is exquisite, as I always hope for in King. He may be my favourite writer and someday I want to read him in full english. But it's way easier to get a hold of any book in spanish here so we never give it much thought lol.

Do you think translated versions lose magic? I do. Sometimes you just feel there's something off with the translation. I hate when that happens! Even then, I love me some Stephen king.