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The Heavenly Christmas Tree

I
am a novelist, and I suppose I have made up this story. I write “I suppose,”
though I know for a fact that I have made it up, but yet I keep fancying that it
must have happened somewhere at some time, that it must have happened on
Christmas Eve in some great town in a time of terrible frost.
I have a vision of a boy, a little boy, six years old or even younger. This boy
woke up that morning in a cold damp cellar. He was dressed in a sort of little
dressing-gown and was shivering with cold. There was a cloud of white steam
from his breath, and sitting on a box in the corner, he blew the steam out of his
mouth and amused himself in his dullness watching it float away. But he was
terribly hungry. Several times that morning he went up to the plank bed where his
sick mother was lying on a mattress as thin as a pancake, with some sort of bundle
under her head for a pillow. How had she come here? She must have come with
her boy from some other town and suddenly fallen ill. The landlady who let the
“corners” had been taken two days before to the police station, the lodgers were
out and about as the holiday was so near, and the only one left had been lying for
the last twenty-four hours dead drunk, not having waited for Christmas. In
another corner of the room a wretched old woman of eighty, who had once been a
children’s nurse but was now left to die friendless, was moaning and groaning
with rheumatism, scolding and grumbling at the boy so that he was afraid to go
near her corner. He had got a drink of water in the outer room, but could not find
a crust anywhere, and had been on the point of waking his mother a dozen times.
He felt frightened at last in the darkness: it had long been dusk, but no light was
kindled. Touching his mother’s face, he was surprised that she did not move at all,
and that she was as cold as the wall. “It is very cold here,” he thought. He stood a
little, unconsciously letting his hands rest on the dead woman’s shoulders, then he
breathed on his fingers to warm them, and then quietly fumbling for his cap on
the bed, he went out of the cellar. He would have gone earlier, but was afraid of
the big dog which had been howling all day at the neighbour’s door at the top of
the stairs. But the dog was not there now, and he went out into the street.

Mercy on us, what a town! He had never seen anything like it before. In the
town from which he had come, it was always such black darkness at night. There
was one lamp for the whole street, the little, low-pitched, wooden houses were
closed up with shutters, there was no one to be seen in the street after dusk, all the
people shut themselves up in their houses, and there was nothing but the howling
of packs of dogs, hundreds and thousands of them barking and howling all night.
But there it was so warm and he was given food, while here—oh, dear, if he only
had something to eat! And what a noise and rattle here, what light and what
people, horses and carriages, and what a frost! The frozen steam hung in clouds
over the horses, over their warmly breathing mouths; their hoofs clanged against
the stones through the powdery snow, and every one pushed so, and—oh, dear,
how he longed for some morsel to eat, and how wretched he suddenly felt. A
policeman walked by and turned away to avoid seeing the boy.

Here was another street—oh, what a wide one, here he would be run over for
certain; how everyone was shouting, racing and driving along, and the light, the
light! And what was this? A huge glass window, and through the window a tree
reaching up to the ceiling; it was a fir tree, and on it were ever so many lights, gold
papers and apples and little dolls and horses; and there were children clean and
dressed in their best running about the room, laughing and playing and eating and
drinking something. And then a little girl began dancing with one of the boys,
what a pretty little girl! And he could hear the music through the window. The boy
looked and wondered and laughed, though his toes were aching with the cold and
his fingers were red and stiff so that it hurt him to move them. And all at once the
boy remembered how his toes and fingers hurt him, and began crying, and ran on;
and again through another window-pane he saw another Christmas tree, and on a
table cakes of all sorts—almond cakes, red cakes and yellow cakes, and three grand
young ladies were sitting there, and they gave the cakes to any one who went up to
them, and the door kept opening, lots of gentlemen and ladies went in from the
street. The boy crept up, suddenly opened the door and went in. Oh, how they
shouted at him and waved him back! One lady went up to him hurriedly and
slipped a kopeck into his hand, and with her own hands opened the door into the
street for him! How frightened he was. And the kopeck rolled away and clinked
upon the steps; he could not bend his red fingers to hold it tight. The boy ran away
and went on, where he did not know. He was ready to cry again but he was afraid,
and ran on and on and blew his fingers. And he was miserable because he felt
suddenly so lonely and terrified, and all at once, mercy on us! What was this
again? People were standing in a crowd admiring. Behind a glass window there
were three little dolls, dressed in red and green dresses, and exactly, exactly as
though they were alive. One was a little old man sitting and playing a big violin,
the two others were standing close by and playing little violins and nodding in
time, and looking at one another, and their lips moved, they were speaking,
actually speaking, only one couldn’t hear through the glass. And at first the boy
thought they were alive, and when he grasped that they were dolls he laughed. He
had never seen such dolls before, and had no idea there were such dolls! And he
wanted to cry, but he felt amused, amused by the dolls. All at once he fancied that
some one caught at his smock behind: a wicked big boy was standing beside him
and suddenly hit him on the head, snatched off his cap and tripped him up. The
boy fell down on the ground, at once there was a shout, he was numb with fright,
he jumped up and ran away. He ran, and not knowing where he was going, ran in
at the gate of some one’s courtyard, and sat down behind a stack of wood: “They
won’t find me here, besides it’s dark!”

He sat huddled up and was breathless from fright, and all at once, quite
suddenly, he felt so happy: his hands and feet suddenly left off aching and grew so
warm, as warm as though he were on a stove; then he shivered all over, then he
gave a start, why, he must have been asleep. How nice to have a sleep here! “I’ll sit
here a little and go and look at the dolls again,” said the boy, and smiled thinking
of them. “Just as though they were alive! . . . ” And suddenly he heard his mother
singing over him. “Mammy, I am asleep; how nice it is to sleep here!”

“Come to my Christmas tree, little one,” a soft voice suddenly whispered over
his head.

He thought that this was still his mother, but no, it was not she. Who it was
calling him, he could not see, but some one bent over and embraced him in the
darkness; and he stretched out his hands to him, and . . . and all at once—oh, what
a bright light! Oh, what a Christmas tree! And yet it was not a fir tree, he had
never seen a tree like that! Where was he now? Everything was bright and shining,
and all round him were dolls; but no, they were not dolls, they were little boys and
girls, only so bright and shining. They all came flying round him, they all kissed
him, took him and carried him along with them, and he was flying himself, and he
saw that his mother was looking at him and laughing joyfully. “Mammy, Mammy;
oh, how nice it is here, Mammy!” And again he kissed the children and wanted to
tell them at once of those dolls in the shop window. “Who are you, boys? Who are
you, girls?” he asked, laughing and admiring them.
“This is Christ’s Christmas tree,” they answered. “Christ always has a
Christmas tree on this day, for the little children who have no tree of their own. . . .
” And he found out that all these little boys and girls were children just like
himself; that some had been frozen in the baskets in which they had as babies
been laid on the doorsteps of well-to-do Petersburg people, others had been
boarded out with Finnish women by the Foundling and had been suffocated,
others had died at their starved mother’s breasts (in the Samara famine), others
had died in the third-class railway carriages from the foul air; and yet they were all
here, they were all like angels about Christ, and He was in the midst of them and
held out His hands to them and blessed them and their sinful mothers. . . . And
the mothers of these children stood on one side weeping; each one knew her boy
or girl, and the children flew up to them and kissed them and wiped away their
tears with their little hands, and begged them not to weep because they were so
happy.

And down below in the morning the porter found the little dead body of the
frozen child on the woodstack; they sought out his mother too. . . . She had died
before him. They met before the Lord God in heaven.
Why have I made up such a story, so out of keeping with an ordinary diary,
and a writer’s above all? And I promised two stories dealing with real events! But
that is just it, I keep fancying that all this may have happened really—that is, what
took place in the cellar and on the woodstack; but as for Christ’s Christmas tree, I
cannot tell you whether that could have happened or not.